I was raised in a very God fearing Bible school. I was constantly taught to be like Paul especially in respect of this.
2 Timothy 4:7
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
Fight the good fight. Run the good race. I was told.
So I tried. I fumbled. I stumbled. I failed.
Then the Spirit of grace told me this is about Paul himself. It’s about him finishing the course and cause Jesus set for him.
He had by the end of his life preached the gospel to every creature of the known world at his time already.
This is the gospel that you heard and that has been proclaimed to EVERY CREATURE under heaven, and of which I, Paul, have become a servant.
It was then I realized Paul has run my race for me. My job is to just rest in the loving arms of Jesus.
Dedicated to all my friends are struggling to seek favor from Jesus.